Well, a week overdue, but it hppens.

Anyway, I headed out to my appoint last Tuesday at a spalon in a nearby city for makeup advice, etc. I was as nervous as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocker chairs, lol. However, the artist, Holly, was very understanding and put my at ease at once.

She was curious as to why I needed makeup advice and I just told her that a very special lady in my life wanted me to get in touch with my feminine side and that this was part of the process. Holly gave me a little smile and asked if this was for “training.” Stunned, all I could do was nod. She laughed and told me to relax.

She went over some of the basics of foundations, concealer (I didn’t even know there was such a thing!), proper removal of make up (there’s special makeup remover as well?!!)).

When I told her what I wanted to do with my eyeshadow, she giggled and said that blue eyeshadow was way too 80′s! Then we showed me how browns and golds were actually better for me and showed me how 3 (!) different shades can be blended in different areas of teh eye to produce the best effects.

And let’s not even talk about lips! Lip liner? I thought all a gorl had to do was smear on some lipstick, maybe blot it, and good to go! Wrong!

Well, when all was said and done, I realized that I have a loooong way to go and a lot of practice to work on this. I also spent a tad too much money there and later at CVS buying basic cosmetic. Holly talked me into buying an excellent brush set, though. anoter something that I hadn’t thought of.

Oh, well, until next time,

Tonya
xxxooo

Well, the relatives have finally left so I can get back to my regimen. Yay!!

I called Mistress Cecilia today and she rightly upbraided me for not keeping in touch and not finding the time to do my daily assignments and working toward my goal of becoming a strawberry blonde, cock-sucking bimbo.  I need to be more serious about this if I truly want to express Tanya more in my life.

That said, I am sitting here wearing panties under my “drabs” and working on part of my regimen (ie, writing a blog entry).  What are my assignments? Easy. I have to wear panties every day, as much as possible.  Not necessiarily 24/7 but at least once a day. I have to masturbate “like a girl” while wearing them. Whatever cum I produce, has to be licked off my dildo, that I also have to practice my cocksucking skills on. Oh, yes, and I have to watch porn on redtube.com (not Redbook–silly bimbo!) and fantasize about beng the girl (~never~ the stud!) in the videos.

The most embarassing thing has come to light, however. Whenever I’m having sex with my wife, I’ll start to go, uh, “soft” and I have to think and concentrate on the idea of sucking cock to get hard again.  ~blush~

Anyway, tomorrow is the big day where I go to a “beauty consultant” and have  a makeover.  Advice on how to wear makeup and apply it and the basic essentials and colors that I need will be the purpose of this foray into my life as Tanya.  Needless to say, until my call with Ms. Cecilia today, I was a tad apprehensive, but now I’m sure that everything will work out ok.  One of the more interesting things is that whenever I finish a call with her, I have a certain sense of clarity and purpose that lasts for several days at least.  I knew there was a reason I needed to call her more often!

Well, I’ll post an update tomorrow after I get back from the shop!

ttfn,

Tonya

~sigh~

The Holidays are here again allowing very little (make that no) “me” time. I still have an outstanding assignment from Ms. Cecila that needs ot get done. Maybe next week; it’s not lack of committment, but lack of opportunity (too many “nosey relatives hanging on the bell all day” to quote Bilbo).

The assignment is for moi to go to a department store cosmetics counter to get make up advice…my colors and shades that I shhould use and that sort of thing. I’m assuming that it’s up to my discretion about whether I have any work done at this time. (But we all know about assumptions, don’t we, hmmm?)

~sigh~

I really need some me time….

ttfn!

tonya

xxxooo

Well, a long time has passed since my last blog post and a lot of stuff has happened since then. I purged (bad sissy!) but then I started working with Ms. Cecilia (http://www.kinkadvice.com/). She’s helping me to overcome my silly fears and is a great influenece in assissting to slowly, but surely, become Tanya.

But who is Tanya? Well, I guess in a sentence: Tanya is a big-boobed, strawberry blonde, cocksucking bimbo.

There I said it (well typed it, but said it outloud while typing it).

To help in my transformation, such as it is, I have several assignements that I’ve been working on. One, I have to wear panties and masturbate in them like a girl EVERY day. Not only that, I have to lick up and swallow my own cum. And you know what? It’s ~really~ yummy! ~giggle~ On days that I don’t, I feel bad…Ms. Cecila laughed at that. she said it’s supposed to be the other way around, i.e. I should feel bad because I’m eating cum. Well, I do want to be a cocksucker, don’t I?

Another thing that occured to me and I talked yesterday with Ms. Cecilia about it, is profession. I’m currently in grad school working on my master’s in history. It just doesn’t seem to me like a bimbo cocksucker should be a history teacher. So, since I work on weekends and go to school nights, i was thinking about maybe picking up cosmetology school during the day. Seems like a nice job for a bimbo.

Well, I guess that’s all for now. One of my new assignments is to keep a blog and update it weekly. So, since Her wish is my command, I’ll see you again in about a week, if not sooner.

Bye!

xxxooo,
Tanya